its been a long time my friends!
hahaha. i don't know i guess my down mood hasn't really got me much in the mood for posting. i mean i'm just like uh.

NOTE: THE POST AHEAD IS A LONG ONE.

BEWARE.

RTs are finally over.
i heave a sigh of relief but then again i'm overwhelmed with guilt.
it isn't nice to know that you could have worked harder. i seriously feel i took it to likely. i mean 1 month+ 1 extra week? thats a whole lot of time. a lot of time that i could have made good use of but i didn't. i just wished that i had been more serioused. more focused. i expected to fail chinese i guess but hearing that i did is a bummer still. i don't know. chinese has the terrible effect on me. but i guess i still really have to push on. the battle's still not over. i have 1 and a half years to buck up. i need to pass O level chinese. i mean, 2 extra years of chinese and even more pressure is not worth it!

haha. okay. i have to do some filling in! being away for so long is rather odd. hehe.

friday was maths, the last day. haha. and well, the paper was horrendous. i had absolutely like no idea how to do like almost every question and i was just DYING. literally. i just kept skipping. and even those i attempted i didn't know what i was doing. AH. i have myself so irritating sometimes, like what, watching CRIMINAL MINDS before the paper! AHHHHH. though the serial car killer thing was cool though. hahaha. but no, not a saddistic person. but while watching it that day, i realised that for a killer, giving him the life sentence isn;t worth it. taking his life is not going to bring back the lives of all those he killed. killing him isn;t enough to punishment for what he's done. i know its cruel that he's put to death but its unfair. the people don't deserve to die.

anyway yes so after like 1 and a half hours of struggling the paper ended and i don't know why. i started crying. i mean, i've never been the one to cry for academics. never. i would usually be comforting or like cheering people up but this time i was the one. idk. i don't think it is like my sudden change in attitude to like my studies and results. i don;t know. haha. but well i cried. i guess the week was really tough and the sudden blow was too hard to handle. i don't think i even did enough questions to give me a pass so its more or less a fail. i'm just worried that i will end up with a single digit. sigh.

sometimes life's like that i guess. we can't expect it to be smooth sailing. or that things will always be perfect but we have to be strong. i know that. but its hard. hahaha.


haha. i love this quote :)

yes so apart from the saddness i'll like to thank my AWESOME friends:) hahaha. the hugs did help as well as the comforting words! i really really appreciate it:D hahaha.

ah, and for crying like twice in one day, i apologise. hahaha. but "emo girl" was weird!
haha. thanks for waiting:) like 1 hour for my tearing to stop and for me to be well enough to go for lunch. hahaha. so like me, blenda, ram, sammie, camel, emo kid and justin went for lunch:) haha. it was rather gross okay. like milo+curry+ketchup+chilli+bread+mc chicken left overs+ random food packaging+ fries+ ice+ lettuce+ a lot more random and disgusting stuff to not make an awesome concoction. hahaha. but we realised if like you drain it right, the liquid that comes out (brown) does look a whole lot like milo. hahaha. and then david like ate some and drank some. EW. hahaha. was it was rather funny to watch:)

and then like there was the sudden like lets go bowling? sammie and justin left then we went walk walk walk walk walk till like forever, till we found the bowling alley. and then like we found there was some chinese society event thing. hahaha. the people were all like really really old too O: hahaha. so like all the lanes were taken ):

we went up to like the super ulu arcade above it with like almost no one. this there was this punching thingy so i went to like push its stomach and the machine started making this really really loud noise as though it was spoiled and then the terrible recording started playing till the guy game to do something. hehe. itchy fingers:) hmm, we realised that like camel and emo kid hhave inner anger! or something like that. hahaha. though camel and pro fingers. playing some weird music game which had like super weird songs and very odd covers. hahah. the cantonese song was rather unbearable.

haha. so on our journey to find a place to bridge, we realised that so many people are against GAMBLING! haha. though like bridging is not gambling but ya. HAHA. you know like at marine bowl, the house rules "no gambling" and then in the arcade we looked at the like window and then there was "no gambling" so we went to the beach.

and bridged at the bench there. hahaha. where i created my awesome song that was oh so catchy!
"depression, depression, we're all falling into depression"

hahaha. don't be concerned i am fine :)

haha yes so after that we returned to the bowling alley where we found it was booked till 10.30? so we table soccered then went to the playground where we bridged, AGAIN:) hehe. and then it was time to head home:) oh did i mention that i was speaking chinese to blenda! hehehe, its quite fun you know! dawn is actively trying to improve her chinese:D

haha. and then i had a kinda emo yet not very. haha. then suddenly jianyou started talking to me. after like a year + and asked me if i was okay. hahaha. it was really funny you know. hahaha.
but natasha reasoned that its because i'm not expected to be emo so when i am, its scary. haha.
YAY, but thanks dear for like talk, i feel a lot a lot better now though i don't think it was exactly that good a time. haha. 12-2am is not that ideal. haaha.

SATURDAY:D
okay so like sleeping at 2,30 and waking up at 7 is not good. but i went for floorball! haha. met the guys at school then we went like to valhall. haahha. the guys were sharing umbrellas. i was very cute you know. hahaha. i was laughing. hehe. anyway the rain was really heavy and we were stuck outside like the place so we went to seek shelter somewhere else with a lot of weird guys wearing headbands. haha.

yes anyway floorball was fun! hahaha. haven't touched my stick in like ages. so well i am scarred with the most terrible body ache ever!!! hahaha. no excercise for 1month isn't good. so well i am in great pain and i walk funnily. haha. mummy says that i am making myself seem like i am the oldest in the family and win gor gor says that i act as though i;m pregnant. hahaha. though clearly not. can't believe there is PE tmr! O: unfit for running i tell you.

SUNDAY
church! haha, and daddy just left for germany! safe trip daddy:D

MIGTHY TO SAVE

Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

My Saviour, you can move the mountains,
You are mighty to save,
You are mighty to save.
Forever, Author of Salvation,
You rose and conquered the grave,
Yes you conquered the grave

Oh yes congrats natsha for being the new EDS head and wenxin too! hahaha. love you both:D