hello friends!

this will be dawn's last post before doomsday:D
hahahahaha. anyway, thankyou so much eveeryone for the encouragement!
HAHAHA, yesterday i had my birthday dinner and it was so awesome:D i ate and ate and ate until my stomach was so so super bloated! HHEHE. but it was really fun:D haha. family time!

anyway, MZZDWAI is ending today): which is rather sad though i must admit i;m glad that it'll no longer be a distraction! HAHAHA.

i some how feel quite dead now because i just realised there's so much left for bio and math for me to do, and then i haven't even started LA which is my first paper, so AHHHH. hahaha
but nvm, i'll do alright! i have god with me:) HAHAHA

HOE KANG: hahahaha. thankyou! hahaha. no lah. i'm sure you'll do alright:D good luck kay!:D
SIN FAI: hahahah. thankyou too!:D hahaha, i haven't put in a lot of work! O: hahaha. yes i hope so!:D hahahaha. jiayou:D you're not screwed.
NATASHA: hahahahaha. thankyou! hahaha. love you too:)

GOOD LUCK FRIENDS!:D



STUDY BREAK BEGINS!

ahahaha. i officially declare the DEADNESS of my blog! i shall not be posting till a while later i think. at least i don't want to! its 1week more to my exams! and i'm scared! but itsokay:D i've learned to take it eaasy and i'm relaxing so i think everything's gonna be alright!:D HAHAHA.

watching awesome show now:D
natasha you suck to say i have "auntie taste" DIE.

hhahahahaa, anyway meeting besties for lunch tmr!:D HEHEHE.

i'm not going to tired myself out so mich. there's still like 2 more weeks of stress and exams! ): and so i cannot stress myself or work too hard! HAHAHAHA. though thats totally an excuse, it does make me feel better! hehe.

today was funny funny!
hahaha. there was the remote control thingy and so i pointed it at samuel and started clicking and went "stop being a loser, stop being a loser, stop being a loser" " aiyo, i think its not working" HAHAHAHAHA. it was hilarious okay! i was laughing and laughing and laughing so much! hahaha. of course i got killed by him lah. but it doesn't matter! :D HAHAHA

Nehneh Natasha says:
are you sure anot
don't need to be shy lah
want to meet me just say
HAHAHA
DAWN child of GOD says:
HAHAHAHAHA
i will puke!
GOSH
Nehneh Natasha says:
HAHAHAHA
aiyoh see me too nervous so puke?
poor thing ):


DAWN child of GOD says:
gosh natasha
Nehneh Natasha says:
yes?
you want to tell me how much you adore me?
don't lah
DAWN child of GOD says:
i wonder what i saw in you.... HAHAHAHA. how is it possible that we are friends? O:
Nehneh Natasha says:
i shy -hahaha,shy face that does not appear here-

HAHAHA. okay i need to concentrate on my show already! HAHAHA. still have 1hour more to my show:D:D:D

awesome show that is 2hours long:D

hahaha. thanks jiayan! HAHAHA. jiayan sent me this a while ago! hehehe. its so cute so i'm passing it on to all of you:D

goodluck natasha for you mole and physics tests! :D i know you can do it!

HAHAHAHA.







hahaha.
i just realised that my previous post really didn't make any sense. OHWELL.

but still i'm scared. my chest is heavy. my heart beats so fast. my hands are all jittery.

PURE PURE SCARED.
i don't know i'm so worried that i'll fail everything.
i wonder if my concepts have always been so bad, or that i just can't seem to get it right these days. i don't know.

i try to be positive and look on the bright side. i do! i really really do. its just that, its hard to find a bright side. i feel stressed, so i go and play games, then i waste my time, then i feel even more stressed cos there's so much to do. its a never ending cycle of STRESS NESS. but i know things will be alright!:D

God is with me. i just need to be able to carry on and have hope. jiayou:D

thankyou alex for all your nice and encouraging words. you're awesome:D:D:D

hahahaha. okay, but i shall not make you all feel depressed!
no no. my blog should not make anyone feel sad okay! so all of you must still stay happy:D

after all, we're all in this together:D



AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

sigh sigh. i am really really stressed now. sigh sigh sigh.

now i really do understand why lorraine punches the table.

i am fed up man!
i can't do math, i can't do physics, and i can't do math. and the rest there's nothing to do! so i basically can't do EVERYTHING):

i am dying. dying dying dying.

things aren't working out ): i really worry that i won't be able to pass anything ):

i need to ask a MILLION QUESTIONS and i really really need a lot a lot a lot of help.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

luckily i have a whole 12 donuts at home, a million tubs of ice cream, my chocolate and my AWESOME show! if not i tell you i would have gone mad by now!

AH AH AH AH AH AH AH AH.






hoe kang and sin fai both posted it to YAY:D


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hello world!
haaha. i don't know why but i suddenly feel a lot more relaxed!
i don't know why really! hahahaha. but i feel more refreshed and i don't think so much about the papers and all. thinking about it will just make me kinda sad):

but its okay! i'm going to try my best:D
to a little at a time!:)

hehehehehheeh. i suddenly thought of david archuleta!
HAHAHAHA. HE IS SO AWESOME:D hahaha. duane sang "A little too not over you" yesterday! i think the judges are so mean to him man! they give him so bad comments! HAHAHA. but then again i may be bias cos he sang a David Archuleta song! HAHHAHAHA. i don't know:D

i'll work hard and try my best!
God please guide me through this:D

With All I am

Into your hand
I commit again
With all I am
For you Lord

You hold my world
In the palm of your hand
And I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing with all I am
I'll walk with you wherever you go
Through tears and joyI'll trust in you
And I will live in all of your ways and your promises forever

CHORUS

I will worship I will worship you forever

CHORUS






SMILE!:D




LIFE'S A CLIMB.

sometimes i really wonder if what i am doing is right. getting so stressed over my exams, feeling guilty over not studying, thinking thinking thinking about it. whether or not i've actually been studying doesn't matter. because it has already taken over my life. its become like my "God". and i think that's just pure scary. scary scary scary.

DOOM.

i'm gonna have a breakdown soon, its hard you know. thinking of all the many many different subjects and the different topics and then the stress. its just that there's so much pressure to perform. though everyone's running their own race and supposedly competing against yourself, you still have the constant knowledge and thought in your head that you'll be overtaken, that people will be working even harder, and in the end reach the finishing line faster than you. i can't help but admit that being placed in such a competitive society, i've become competitive too:/

results aren't everything in the world, but somehow we can't help but make in the centre of our lives. was discussing this with camel and i guess he's right. its not the only thing that matters, but as students, the exams are the only thing really major in our lives. kinda the only thing that will help control our future. so i guess it is rather important.

coming to IP i just really really feel like a no lifer. i mean, i didn't even notice that it was the holidays. you know what i just thought about? 'NO SCHOOL, SHOULD HAVE MORE TIME TO STUDY" seriously. WHAT IS HAPPENING? but i geuss we can't help it. VJ is like a seriously reseults oriented place. sadly. the standard is so high but they're not going to lower it. they claim the teachers will help us reach the high standard. sigh.

i have 3 physics papers,
4 chem papers,
1 LA paper,
a lot of geog sample questions,
1 chinese paper
and 2 math papers.

it has hit me. each physics paper is 3hours long. each math paper is 3hours long. the LA paper is 4 and a half hours long. Each chinese is 2hours long. each chem is 2h15min long. adding everything up its kinda A LOT A LOT OF HOURS. hahahahah. so much for, let dawn be hardworking and do all! AHAHAHHAHAHA.

i can't help but admit that its tough. that sometimes i just feel like giving up. things get be so frustrated that i don't feel like doing the subject anymore, but i guess there's nothing i can do but strive on:D i have 20days left to the exams. if just because i'm fed up or whatever i am going to regret. 1 year of hardwork will go down the drain just because i'm not willing to just spend 3weeks mugging. i don't want to regret and think i didn't work hard enough.

on a lighter note thanks my awesome class:D hahaha. everyone's sending really sweet emails to encourage everyone! :D through the thick and the thin, we'll always have each other:D

natasha i am proud of you.

for you have finally seen the light.

I AM AWESOME!

hehehehehhehe. i feel retarded.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i can't believe that like the exams are like less than a month away): SIGH. its really tough you know! just loooking at all the different topics give me a real real big headache):
its like you keep wanting to start but never know how to):

eeyo eeyo.

OH BUT YOU KNOW I AM TYPING EXCEPTIONALLY SLOWLY! BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO AVOID SPELLING MISTAKES!
its so sad okay):
hahaha. if not everyone will blame me again): hmph. dawn syndrome):

hahaha. so i'm going to buck up! a lot a lot! they revealed like all the results for CA2 and our class is like seriously seriously behind): except for like amanda who managed to make us proud again with her imba physics! HAHA. doing average in class kinda means not so well in level): SO ITS SAD. but no, i shall not be disheartened! because there's still time:D little but still there's hope. and once there's hope, we can't give up:D HEHE.

jiayou me friends!:D

haha "happiness is a thin sheet of ice"

anyway, to more deep topics, i have to blame sammie for this.
hmm, he asked me this today. "if a terrorist points a gun at you and asks you to deny christ, would you?"
and now i am directing this question to you my goodie blog readers!

honestly though i really would like to say that i wouldn't deny Jesus even if it costs my life but i know i would just be lying to myself if i said so. i realised, i'm really not ready to die? i know that as a Christian, God has prepared a place for us in heaven and all, but i really can't seem to make myself think about things that way.

the same way i can't let go of things and just leave them to God. Like while studying for an exam or tests, i study and study and study and sometimes i just can't let go off it. i can't say, "okay i've done my best, now i just have to wait for God to guide my through it". i want to but i can't. i'm to dependant on myself): and thats wrong!

mummy once told me that maybe its because i'm "intelligent" (okay erm, not very. but above average? haha. so that counts) anyway, yes, so like being people like, we know we can do it and that we have the potential to do well ourselves, such that we are unwilling to believe and put all our trust in God.

but i've got to learn to do it! because even God's weakness is greater than man's wisdom.

okay okay! me's gotta go.
a day is 24hours long.
and its gotta be filled with work! for at least like the next 3weeks!
GO GO GO!:D