AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i can't believe that like the exams are like less than a month away): SIGH. its really tough you know! just loooking at all the different topics give me a real real big headache):
its like you keep wanting to start but never know how to):

eeyo eeyo.

OH BUT YOU KNOW I AM TYPING EXCEPTIONALLY SLOWLY! BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO AVOID SPELLING MISTAKES!
its so sad okay):
hahaha. if not everyone will blame me again): hmph. dawn syndrome):

hahaha. so i'm going to buck up! a lot a lot! they revealed like all the results for CA2 and our class is like seriously seriously behind): except for like amanda who managed to make us proud again with her imba physics! HAHA. doing average in class kinda means not so well in level): SO ITS SAD. but no, i shall not be disheartened! because there's still time:D little but still there's hope. and once there's hope, we can't give up:D HEHE.

jiayou me friends!:D

haha "happiness is a thin sheet of ice"

anyway, to more deep topics, i have to blame sammie for this.
hmm, he asked me this today. "if a terrorist points a gun at you and asks you to deny christ, would you?"
and now i am directing this question to you my goodie blog readers!

honestly though i really would like to say that i wouldn't deny Jesus even if it costs my life but i know i would just be lying to myself if i said so. i realised, i'm really not ready to die? i know that as a Christian, God has prepared a place for us in heaven and all, but i really can't seem to make myself think about things that way.

the same way i can't let go of things and just leave them to God. Like while studying for an exam or tests, i study and study and study and sometimes i just can't let go off it. i can't say, "okay i've done my best, now i just have to wait for God to guide my through it". i want to but i can't. i'm to dependant on myself): and thats wrong!

mummy once told me that maybe its because i'm "intelligent" (okay erm, not very. but above average? haha. so that counts) anyway, yes, so like being people like, we know we can do it and that we have the potential to do well ourselves, such that we are unwilling to believe and put all our trust in God.

but i've got to learn to do it! because even God's weakness is greater than man's wisdom.

okay okay! me's gotta go.
a day is 24hours long.
and its gotta be filled with work! for at least like the next 3weeks!
GO GO GO!:D